Monday, July 31, 2017

In Memory

I rarely share a lot of my personal life on my blog or any social media.  It's something I keep to myself, and frankly it isn't all that exciting!  Today, I'm choosing to share the saddest of events.  As a therapy, as a remembrance, as a way to honor.

Friday me and my family learned that my oldest brother Michael had passed away from an apparent heart attack.  



The shock was terrible.  The grief unbearable.  My heart is heavy.  I don't have adequate words to express myself and how we or I feel.  We just got our Mother settled a couple weeks ago back in Portland, where she would be closer to many of her children.  She was looking forward to being with her son once again.  My heart is broken for her.



Michael was a grumpy old man!!  A grumpy old man with a heart of gold!  It was all part of his charm to me!  My children use to call him Uncle Bubble Gum because he would often stop by after work and drop a package of bubble gum through the mail slot for each of them.   
This photo is one of my favorites.  Gruff, but with a twinkle in his eye.  I loved him so much and he will be missed.  



Our family has a void that will never be filled with the loss of Mike The Spike! (a name bestowed upon him by our Grandpa)  

We will grieve together as a family.  We will come together as a family.  We will never forget our dear brother.  

Take the time today to tell someone you love them.  You could put if off until tomorrow...but don't.  

37 comments :

  1. So sorry for you and your family. Hard to take when so unexpected. I wondered why you were going to Oregon this week. Dwell on the joy he brought to you and your mother. Consider yourself hugged and travel safely.

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending good thoughts to you and your family.

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  3. Jayne, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family. Your advise to tell someone you love them today and not put it off is spot on. Time is fleeting and moves so fast, we don't always realize that we put even the simplest things like showing/telling love until it is to late. Sending lots of hugs, love and prayers to you, my friend.

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  4. Jayne, Mike and I are so sorry for your loss and send prayers and love to you and your family as you deal with this loss. We hope that being with your mom during such a rough time will give her and you the strength you need to cope with this. Hugs and love, Nadine Willis Northern Cali.

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  5. A sudden loss is so hard to cope with. Getting your feelings out in writing might be just what you needed to do at that moment. I lost my oldest sibling (a sister) a few weeks ago. So many emotions and thoughts to deal with. I'll keep you in my prayers.

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  6. Words are so inadequate at times like this Jayne, know only my thoughts are with you and yours.

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  7. So very very sorry for you loss.

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  8. Jayne, I'm so very sorry to hear of your brother's passing. I will be thinking of you and your family.

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  9. oh I'm so so sorry for your loss.... hugs

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  10. I am so very sorry for your loss Jayne. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  11. I am so, so sorry to hear of your loss and the whole this will leave in your family, Jayne. Lots of love to you and let me know if you ever need a listening ear as you go through the grief process. It's hard. I learned that asking, "Are you OK?" allowed those profoundly hurt by grief the ability to honestly say no if they needed to. So... are you OK? Again, lots of love to you.

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  12. Losing a love one so quickly is never easy, Jayne. The heart ache, the pain, the memories and the wishes that he were still here are sometimes overwhelming. Take your time to grieve, fill your days with the ones you love and the things you love to do, and talk to him! Your brother is still with you and can hear you. Ask him to send you an undeniable sign and it will give you peace. Blessings to you!

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  13. I am so sorry for your loss. I imagine it is even more painful when it is so sudden, and so many different types of emotions.

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  14. So sorry to hear of your loss, Jayne. Praying for strength for you and your family at this time. x

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  15. I am so sorry for your loss, Jayne. My love and sympathies to you and your family x

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  17. Dear Jayne, I'm so sorry for your loss. You are in in my thoughts. Hugs and love. x Teje

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  18. Oh no, I'm so sorry for you Jayne ! I'm sending you hugs.

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  19. What a shock. Condolences to you and your family.

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  20. Oh Jayne, I am so sorry for your loss. Your story shows the love you had for your brother. Hang on to the memories and cherish them. Hugs to you.

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  21. Jayne, I am so sorry for your loss.

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  22. So sorry for your loss. Sending you hugs.

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  23. Jayne I am sorry for your loss. I love the bubble gum story that is something that you will remember forever. Those of the memories that at some point will help ease the pain of your loss.

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  24. I am so very sorry to hear this - he sounds like quite a fun character, and very loving. Hugging you and your family from afar

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  25. I am so sorry, Jayne. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  26. I am sorry for your loss Jayne. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  27. Jayne, you have so much to grieve right now. It must feel like a great weight. I hope it lightens as you grieve and the memories comfort you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss, both your brother and Mary. Take care of yourself during this stressful time.

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  28. It is in sharing our personal lives and grief that we come together as friends. That is the difference between Instagram and Blogging...With blogs, you can know me and I can know you...I am sad today for you and your family. I am thankful that you shared..xoxo

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  29. So sorry for your losses. May the love and concern of those who surround you bring you solace and peace.

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  30. I am so sorry, Jayne. Sending lots of hugs and healing vibes.

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  31. I am so sorry for both of your losses. Hugs,

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  32. Oh Jayne I am sorry for your loss . A hard one to bear . I was at another funeral today , my uncle . These goodbyes are so painful x

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  33. I'm so sorry for your loss Jayne. Your brother's death, suddenly at an early age must have been such a shock for you and your family. You will all miss him so much. I'm thinking of you and sending good thoughts and hugs.

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  34. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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